In his eyes, I am fantastic in so many ways.
That he sees me as fantastic means the world to me! He sees the strength, caring, smarts, love, silliness, insecurities, craziness, passion, and weaknesses in me. He likes all the parts of me. He has seen me at my worst, at my lowest, and he still likes me. And that is helping me to learn to like myself again. He sees me and encourages me to do what I want, to be myself, to find out more about what I like and what I want to do. That is one of the many reasons why I value him so much.
That he sees me as fantastic is amazing, and wow it also hurts! In a good way, but it hurts. Rarely in my life have I felt that people knew the real me, let alone liked the real me. Yes, I know that some of that is self-fulfilling because I haven't often let people see the real me. (See "Who Am I?" post.) But that trust problem came from so many times where I did share who I was with people and got shunned for it. For whatever reason, I didn't have much of this before. It is so good to have it now but there is some pain at knowing it was missing for so long. And here he is his knowing and loving me. It is a little scary. I don't want to let him down.
I will add that he is not the only one seeing and saying this to me, especially lately. Maybe I am being more trusting of my friends and sharing with them the real me. Maybe there are more people in my life looking to see me. Or maybe I am just listening better now.
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3 comments:
I know of whom you speak, and no, he is not the only one telling you these things.
All these things you are being told, you are hearing out of love, for that is the true source.
The only way you could 'let down' those who love you in this way, is to not be true to yourself.
Let love be your safety net. Explore. Test the waters. Find yourself. Be.
There was a long period of time where I was not true to myself. I hope that I am stronger now, more sure of myself, to not fall into that pit again. Luckily, I have some good friends here now to help keep me from hiding myself away.
My thanks to all who have given me love!
You are fantastic. In truth we are all fantastic, but it seems that others help bring that out in ourselves. That safety net of friendship and love really helps.
I, like most, understand the being shunned part when you chameleon to fit in or just become a loner. It just seems safer that way.
You are a shining light of uniqueness no strength involved, just be yourself.
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