Hunger

Ever love someone so much that just being away from them hurt? It shouldn't, right? The love ought to brighten every part of your life. Bah! I'm just moody. Being sexually unsatisfied and frustrated twice today, my body hungers for some attention. Having not eaten much today, my body hungers for plain ol' food. Having not slept much last night, my body just needs rest. I'm starved for some of the basics, and it is making me depressed. Easy fix = go eat then go have sex then go to sleep. But it is just a downward spiral. I'm hungry, but not appetized, so I don't eat. Since my energy reserves are dropping low, I don' t have sex. The sleep bit ... eh, that will come.

*mental kick to the head* Agh! Stop it. I'm going to get something to snack on.

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Hmmmm ... less than 2 hours left in the first day of the new year. Would you believe that I haven't thought of any resolutions. Guess I ought to start:

1. I resolve to stop moping around when I get in a funk ... that'll be hard to do. Sometimes a funk and a healthy cry just feel so good.
2. I resolve to spend more time with my kids. (annual thing :) )
3. I resolve either to do my job right or to quit ... I'm sick of whining about it.
4. I resolve to be grounded and search for my connections (another annual thing)

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I'm sure there will be more. Aren't there always?

To B & J, I love you both so very much. How can I have a life with both of you? How can I not?